Feeling a bit down today.

Which is to be expected as your emotions are up and down on this journey and so far ive been upbeat and confident about it but today for some reason im not im feeling really down and I need to shake it of so im going to go on the wii fit in a min and try and release some happy hormones lol.

Only 8 days to go now then its op day to say my nerves are showing is an understatment lol but its prob what everyone goes through im sure I think that lil devil on my shoulder wispering negative thoughts into my ear has to go so as soon as hes not lookin im goin to stick a bag over his head and do away with him lol

Well thats it for todays post will update again as soon as I have something better to say lin.x

Weight loss surgery nov 09

Well long time no post

I have decided to embark upon getting a gastric bypass.

After doing months of research and talking to some amazing people this is what I have decided to do and thankfully my doctor and pct agreed this is also the path that I need to take to be successfull in losing weight.

So I go in on the 16th of november for my op.

Im scared and excited all rolled into one. I cant wait to be able to lose weight and hopefully keep it off for life .

Ww just didnt seem to work for me in the end so I tried Sw and again it wasnt to be to little lost and taking to long to go and just fallen off the wagon again and again I really did feel this was my only way out of my personal hell hole.

Its not the easy way out its a hard decision to make when you think of everything that is involved with it all the emotions the pain the restriction then the slimmer you and the healthier you and the you with the life you have always wanted.

I have made so many wonderfull friends on wls forums and they are there 24/7 with support for you no matter what the worry is they answer as they know they have been there.

Overall though my wonderfull husband has been the biggest support at first he was set against it and we argued over it at first I thought he wants to keep me fat he doesnt love me but how wrong was I and guilty to even think those things.

He didnt want me to get it coz he was afraid id die but like I said I could get run over by a bus fall down the stairs slip in the bath or die from being FAT.

So after a lot of talking and tears (by me) he was sort of ok about it so we went to my assesment and he listened to what was being said he was still scared but knew I had my determined head on and once ive set my mind to something thats it theres no shifting me so he had to go along with it even if he didnt want to.

But im glad to say hes on board now thank god coz to be honest I know I couldnt and wouldnt want to go through this without his support so my hero right now is him,my husband,my friend,my life.

Well thats it for now I will post again when I have more to say lol lin.x

Going,going gone.

Well where do I start. I wasnt good over the festive season tut tut and I put on 6lbs I was guttered but expecting it. But im now happy to say I only need to lose 1.5lb and it will be gone thank god and im not sure I will be doing it again lol.

Last week I went to new look as I found out I can now shop there. So I went to buy some jeans and I bought a 26 as this is what I thought I was so I didnt try them on and brought them home and put them on and yes youve guessed it they where to big bril I thought. So a few days later I went back to get a size 24 and I thought well I dont need to try them on because I know they will fit so I tried the 22 on to see how long it would be before im in them and they fit with a squeeze but they fit.

I was so made up but I didnt buy them as I thought no the 24 will be better erm a mistake I think because the 24 are now feeling loose so I must be losing inches quickley it must be the hoovering lol. So I am going to buy another pair of jeans now lol yes a size 22 hehe.